why do good girls go not so good

do you know what its like to always know what the right thing is to do? no i mean ALWAYS, no matter how complicated the situation is the "right thing" always sticks out? well i do. but the real choice is whether to acknowledge it, and sometimes i'll convince myself that i don t know what the right thing is but realy i will and all that means is that i realy dont want to do the right thing. and the worst part it doesnt always feel good doin the right thing. what do i tell myself to make me do the right thing, that my father would be proud. ya that works but for how long, how many times can i use that one and the one the Tanya gives abt. reminding yourself that your cutting yourself off from your lifesource, works gr8 when i feel the connection, but its not always there i mean lets face it wer're in golus and sometimes the curtain is strong. I need something tangible i'm a visual learner remember.