Within every love, there is fear: The fear of separation from that which you love.

A child fears separation from her parents, a lover from his beloved, the body fears separation from the soul and the soul from its Source Above.

So what do you love? Look at your worries and you will know.

i wanted to write you

there's prob only one person who will see this - if you even see this
so i thought it would be the perfect place to write you
i dont want to tell you, that's too forward
and i rather you sort of just know it without be letting you
so i figure i'll write it and one day maybe you will read it
and then you will know and i wont know you know

i didnt forget to call you
or write you
even when my phone was broken which made it hard for me to be in touch
i could have figured it out anyway
it was a little hard to figure out the numbers and countries
but i could have
and i didnt not think about you
i chose not to reach you
perhaps a poor choice but it came from good intentions

i wanted to talk to you more than anything
i had so much to say that i thought you would understand
but then i thought that all the things i had to say
you didnt want to hear
that they would be hurtful to you
but i couldnt not say them, i needed to say them
so i said nothing at all

your telling me how you felt made me think twice
i wanted you to know what i had intended
but it didnt seem fair
that would have come across too defensive
too much like an excuse
and it would not have left room for me to feel your hurt
or to apologize
so i didnt say much
i mumbled some stupid excuses just for cover
i think i said sorry - i meant to

i was hurt that you assumed i was thoughtless
and had forgotten about you
but i understood why you thought so
it made me wish you understood
but made me want to reach you less

then you called again
this time you didnt sound hurt
you sounded happy
maybe because there wasnt much time to talk
but it made me think that maybe you werent so hurt
maybe you understood a little bit
so here's the rest to help you understand a little more