love thyself...

its a wonder how so weak and lame
i find my love for thee
yet strong and mighty is the love
i save for loving me

and i know its not a matter
of your importance
versus mine
its just that some of us,
well,
are perfect by design

and even those, perfect as i
that err a time or two
its minor things, just here and there
not frequent like you do

i know deep down
this shouldn't be
i must love you just the same
but when i'm different- nay exceptional
am i really so to blame

yet this in mind-i'll never know
the love that you are due
until i look beyond myself
and know that you're me too

each year on shavuos we get the torah again ...just as it happened at sinai

the scene went something like this...

"hayom yom shloshim...."

"yay we're almost at shavuos"

"that's right - should we count the flowers so we know how many days closer we are"

"1, 2, 3...30"

"soon we gunna cover it up till here - the whole thing!"

"yes, each day we count we get closer and closer to the top - closer to shavuos"

" we're gunna get the torah!"

"today?"

"no, when we get to the top"

"when we get the towah can we look out the window and see?"

"but there aren't enough windows for everyone to see"

" when Hashem gives us the torah - will we go and catch it?"

if only life came with construction signs

there's much to be said for roadway construction workers. aside for their unlimited power in creating traffic jams, blocking roadways and lowering speed limits - there's lots to be learned from them.

most useful i find are their signs, well theirs and just general warning signs. i think we should all have them and routinely use them in every day life.

for example, think how useful it would be, when focusing on an upcoming deadline with weeks worth of work to be accomplished in just days, to just hang up a sign "contents under pressure"
or while in the midst of trying to refine aspects of your character when your not fully accomplished but have come so far - why can't we let everyone know with a "work in progress" sign

even more useful would be if life came with these signs, you know just as warning. So that instead of having to face an obstacle completely unprepared, we'd expect impeding situations with a "detour ahead" notice. and avenues that aren't even worth our while in our journey of self-growth would be clearly marked, "dead end."

oh it would be great to know that those seemingly endless difficult situations really weren't endless that in fact they were just "..next 500 feet."

"slippery road" for those kinda kosher areas, "u-turn" for an opportunity to fix a mess-ups- the list could go forever and yet i'm feeling as though if i translate all the messages into my own sign - it'd look something like this:

wow i've run away for so long ...been meaning to come back and spill but somethings been keeping me ...i only happened upon myself today, clicking on my own name in a comment left for a friend ...weird how that was...but maybe i'll be coming back one of these days...after all there is oh so much to share